the young and stupid

I am in my early twenties which is the perfect age to be young and stupid (not that i wasn't before, but apparently it is more justified when you are in your 20s). I already have quite a collection of stories to tell my grandkids proving that I was by no means a boring young girl and I intend to have a lot more. The point of this post is not really those stories, which I might not reveal to anyone till I have grandkids :P, the real point is, its okay to make stupid spontaneous decisions.

I have made decisions which were not exactly smart, most of them resulted in funny/weird stories, but they were MY decisions rational or not. yes there are instances where I should have taken the other way out but you learn to stand tall only when you fall down enough. If I were really all miss-goody-two-shoes, maybe by now I would have been frustrated being all nice and turned into a psychotic bitch.

In retrospect i don't really want to change any thing, maybe then I wouldn't have turned out the way I have. ( I have been told I am awesome, I shall assume that is true). I think I still have a good 5 years to be all young and stupid, as long as I don't murder someone or get involved in a bank robbery I think I am fine. Even with all my stupid and rash decisions I think I've turned out quite okay. Good job mom! :)

A Year That Was

What a roller coster ride this year was! started with a funny new year party at Krupa's house and ended with a financial discussion 8000 miles away.

First half was bitter sweet, although was really excited about starting a new journey, was really sad that i had to leave behind family, friends and all that was taken for granted (read domestic work and mummy-daddy protection plan). most of it was the Coorg trip then the 2 mini-Lonavala trips, the hugely expensive Hard Rock Cafe stints and Man-U cafe night. the college farewell, where i had tears in my eyes and Hersh trying to cheer me up because he didn't want to get beaten up :P , the black book(s) and my obsessive need to make sure the formatting was perfect, the project presentation where the results were rigged up, lord of the rings trilogy at kela's place, out of the blue's wrong cheese fondue and perfect mushrooms, overnights and mindikot tournaments, last few weeks of meeting everyone at any given chance, friendship day's night when people tried to kidnap me while i sneaked out of my house in pajamas! (and i had actually delayed getting my plane tickets for a birthday party)

saying goodbyes is never easy is it? then came the amreekan part! within a week most of us were leaving, probably not going see other for a long time, people we were habituated to see every day, some of them even during vacations. came here, first place i visit before even reaching my house? kohl's and bath and body shop :P . I actually traveled to 6 states in the first 3 days in USA, i had no apartments to look for no paperwork to be done, no real need for a job like most normal people do. made quite some new friends, house parties and overnights and yes trains! (i am telling you i have some deep connections with trains, even the apartment i live in has a train line next to it!)

new places, new people, new lifestyle. i went from being an absolute princess to doing some work around the house! made some decisions about my life and then went ahead and nullified them..you never know what life throws at you. went from living with family to living on my own. And no i still can't cook!

all in all not really a bad year, but wouldn't really rate it to be the best. the best is yet to come! lets hope 2011 brings more good times than bad, more laughter, more memories and less of life altering decisions (would really prefer it to be drama-less!)

so happy new year! be happy and smile! :)

woah!

I haven't been writing because I am really just running around..for those of you who don't know, i relocated from my wonderful chunnu to a new place which is in a new town in a new country on another continent. Was talking to a friend, he writes a blog too, that reminded oh well didn't I have one too? So I ended up reading my own blog (I was supposed to be studying), remembered all the situations and the state of mind I have written the previous ones. I can recall each and every feeling I felt while writing them, guess that does make me an open book!

This blog was my escape, and I hope to keep it that way, at least try to. Whenever I have been low or sad or happy or excited I have let it out on this in my own weird ways. I've been blogging since I was 18! long time huh..

I guess what I am trying to say this baby is back in business! I am going to try to post at least once every month, i need to keep a chronicle of my life so I can someday come back to it and be amazed how much my life and people in it have changed!

till next month,

lots of love!

dont know what to write.

i am so out of my element its crazy! i think of writing but i simply cant. nothing gets to me. so while i am really bored i just thought I'd write something. so we went to Lonavala a few weeks ago, you know just kinda a day trip. Friday morning we decided on it and on Saturday off we went! poor Darshan, he planned the whole thing, injured his leg on Friday, and couldn't come. it was hanging out kinds. oh but the fun we had! also i gave my LONG pending birthday treat there.

this week it was treat time for rest of the people, namely - Krupa, Hersh, Darshan and Satya. pending since November! after so much wait it rather be good so, we went to hard rock cafe. madness unfolded. (cousins, i am no DHEELI) by the time those waiters got on the platform to do their YMCA dance i was so much in the dancy-mood that i wanted to join them! which i couldn't so i danced near our table! yaay to me!

so as of now i don't have anything else to add. let me me get back from Coorg (going on 3rd march) maybe then I'll have more to share.

niyali..

P.S: by the way i came across this charity "30 dollar finance" via a friend, you guys should check it out. only kicker is they don't have a credit card facility yet, still you can contribute via checks or paypal. (www.30df.org)

advices and then some...

dedication: this one is for someone who told me,*quote* for gods sake please at least write nonsense instead of just staring at space if you have no work! *unquote*

in the past few days, apart from giving various advices i have been on the receiving end of quite a few. since a few hours i have been going back in time and analysing a lot of things, which for some reason had taken for granted. (i know this is sounding a bit gibberish, but you we all have our gibberish moments)

so one of my friends has been having a tough time with a best friend. fights, misunderstandings and such. person that i am, i sit and give advices - do this, do that. that's when i realise, i should take my own advices sometimes. at least 2 of my friends WILL agree that i give really good advices, i wonder why i don't follow them myself!

i have my demons. A LOT OF THEM. why do i try figuring them alone when i am clearly not much of a keeping-my-problems-to-myself kind of a person? (it usually ends with me losing my head or me ending up crying, either of them not good for me or anyone around me!) i think i tend to over analyse the situation, which gets me into deeper shit and wrong or misinterpreted ideas. (sometimes i am right ok!)

one theory is i am too damn stubborn. i resist change even if sometimes change is required and is for good. so i am left behind in an make believe idealist world where everything goes my way. ok maybe half of it can be true, but i definitely don't live in a make believe world.

the other theory is, i don't trust anyone at all. one person, maybe two. that's all the people i trust. that's why when i get upset, there might be no one to pacify me or make me think rational thoughts. and Nirali : upset? SCARY. i guess i should make more friends.

anyways done with grumbling..if anyone is interested in more disjointed ideas please feel free to chat or call me up. oh if by any chance anyone has another theory or can deduct why i have my whys, do let me know.