so my sister thinks im dating some guy...

yes so what if i am 19, is being single a crime these days? if not that is talking to guys a crime? so yeah i have more guy friends then female ones. and dearest moni thinks i am hiding my boyfriend from her, coz a girl my age has to have one (acc to her!)

so i thought i'd clarify, no darling i ain't seeing anyone basically coz most ppl cant stand me..nad frankly my dear, i dont give a damn!

poem #2

while running with the time
do you remember what you have lost?
running after money, that new car,
but at what cost?

do you ever take a moment
and sit near the window?
reminiscing about your past
smiling in its shadow?

i miss those little things
silly and stupid they might be
not the new home nor the new phone
helps me to be that happy,

i wish i could run around the house again,
mom following with the stick,
i wish i could go to the park swing and slide,
without people thinking im sick.

i wish i could curl up in my daddy's arms
rather than sitting alone,
i wish i could revisit happy and silly times,
which seem long gone.

i wish i had the time
to just bask in the glory of the setting sun,
not worry about tomorrow,
for once slow down in life's run.

there are lots of things I'd like to do again,
i wish i have the chance to do them one last time,
being carefree and loved like a little kid,
but alas, I've run out of time.

birthday story continued

hmm..it seems the house arrest was actually because my school friends told my dad they'd give me a surprise. guess what..they didn't turn up. THANKS A LOT for putting me through that misery. bitches.

so i didn't study, sat online for a while and saw a random movie on star movies (i don't even remember the name!) In the evening, i and rest of the family were originally supposed to go to a second cousin's sangeet. yeah so we didn't go, instead i got a yummy butterscotch cake with lots of nuts, and pav bhaji dinner.

i received "im so sorry, i forgot to msg/call earlier, happy birthday" till like 11.59 in the night.lol no hard feelings though. u guys somehow managed to remember is good enough. and yeah also earned a little from assorted uncles and aunties.

so now that i am a year older and hopefully wiser (i totally doubt it) i hope i decrease a bit of my sillyness.

yeah by the way my favorite birthday msg was " happy 5th birthday! hope u remain 5 rest of your life" oh n so you guys know, i still am dying to have pizza! is anyone listening????

mwah!

mishaps on bday!

so what that my birthday as of this second is barely 13 hrs old..but i still had mishaps! yeah cant believe it? neither can i!

so it starts with my awful phone. its gets hanged exactly 5 mins before 12 and my on-off button doesn't work. so i sit and wrestle with the bad ass button till it finally works. 12.02

so then i sit waiting for some one to call up. i finally i welcome new year in my life! and what u mishap u ask me...it so happens none of my really best friends call! all of them manage to fall asleep the same night when they usually are up till the morning light. (yeah i am still angry and im gonna "forget" calling you guys as well!)

anyways with that i also got an unexpected call and the least expected calls make your day, or in my case, night. so after all the phone calls i lay to rest but i am still bummed that mom called in the morning and not at 12..so yes my dad has given me unlimited shopping budget with a catch as bday gift so i am happy but we go shopping after momma dearest lands in mumbai tomorrow.

and i stole my laptop yet again, almost breaking my dad's lock. which is now thankfully and with god's grace restored.so as of now this is gonna be one boring birthday, given that i am under house arrest to study (exams going on) and i am not going anywhere either with friends or family despite this being a Saturday. but nevertheless after-bday-party does show lotsa promise..so lets hang on to it..

so again in chorus
" happy bday to me, happy bday to me!!"

25 things to do before i turn 25!

like India has a 5 yr plan for development, i have my own twisted plans to complete before i turn 25 ok just lets make it before i get thrown out of my house(read married). Its not like i would completely manage to complete it because its a tall order dude, but i can always try!
so lets get to work n start THE list.
in no particular order.

1.fall in love (really huge ass cliche but cant help it)

2.learn to shout on people if they irritate me because that i haven't learnt so far even with half my friend population trying to teach me.

3.start regular exercising (any of my friends would comment with a surety of 99.99%: yeah rite! try getting your ass off that comp chair of yours!)

4.run away, even for a day is ok (DON'T ask me y!)

5.for one day feel and ACT like there is no evil

6.go on a backpacking trip ALONE.

7.travel the world.

8.learn to drive without ppl screaming their lungs out. (not that i am horrid but i drive wayyyyyy too fast!)

9.learn to cook. (my mom is gonna be so proud that i put up this!)

10.be the best damn friend to all my friends and they should admit it without me causing any bodily harm to them.

11.learn guitar and learn a new language pref. Spanish so i can compliment my guitar playing skills with new language songs.

12.meet justin timberlake. ( methinks hes too sexy!)

13.move my sister out of the room and the rightful owner of my huge room..bwaahahahaha..

14.learn accounting..damn i am bad at that. my dad would vouch for that one.

15.go to 5 live concerts. should include Bryan Adams.

16.get a goddamn tattoo.

17.get purple highlights. (told ya i was little wild!)

18.learn table tennis.(my dad used to play for his college and i can't even play it for nuts. what a disgrace i am!!)

19.learn salsa, jive etc. then impress certain people ;p

20.slap a few people i want to, never got around on doing that.

21.get drunk. just once.

22.live alone for a while away from parents.

23.bungee jump. (that'll be fun wouldn't it?)

24.go to ibiza on 31st December

25.now for the most silliest wish: stop biting my nails and let them grow so i can shape them once in my life..lolz!

so yeah dats about it. lets see how much i can manage!
toodles..
xoxox

owner of the lonely hearts club

is it me or everyone at one point or another feels like they are the loneliest person on the planet? so yeah since a little while i guess i am going through that phase which is quite frankly due to my stupid exams (feels good eh, blaming everything on exams! lol)

i sit and stare at the walls because my stupid tv hasn't got one good program on it and somehow my cable guy decided that there is no need of keeping star world, Disney channel and channel v! i mean cmon..then you talk about internet, yeah about that my dad decided its a kickass distraction (i don't blame though ;p) so i barely get a few hours once in 2-3 days. then finally my cell phone whos decided to turn into a screen-less zombie, yeah really the screen just freezes and then to put it on i have to shut the whole thing up and worst part about that is my on-off button is a bitch!

so now you know my sad story. *insert mandatory melodramatic pause here*

ok so i know you guys are going to tell me that instead of worrying about all this i should put my energies into studying..hell if i wanted to do that u think i'd be writing this worthless piece??

emotional freak eh?

long time ago in some circumstances i don't clearly remember someone once told me that i am a emotional freak. so far i haven't decided on this comment's status. lets see.
crazy. check.
stupid. check.
impulsive. check.
philosophical. sometimes.
intelligent. rarely.
thoughtful. i'd like to believe.
trusting. eh not so sure.

so what does that make me? sure, i do make my mistakes when it comes to trusting people, but isn't that the way you learn? sure, i get into some pretty deep messes when it comes to defending people. yeah i am too loyal for my own good. yeah i prioritize my friends way over myself but isn't that supposed to be a nice thing? i see things only the way i want to. and i get insanely jealous when someone tries to take my place. even for a minute. i sometimes cry to get off my stress IN PUBLIC. i think crying out is a better option than to let out everything on a person. and i take all the comments to me to my heart, contrary to what people believe. i DON'T like to defend my position when i am sure i am right. YES i hate to try and explain the same thing five million times.

so yeah back to topic, so what does it make me? just a normal teenager with raging hormones or a stupid emotional freak? do let me know.

new poem!!!

i find inspiration in weirdest of places..so this one i wrote after watching a particularly depressing movie where everyone keeps on dying and there are lots of funerals.

so here goes:
i call it "what if"

we are just puppets
bound by strings from above,
no one know when they go away,
is it in a year a month or today..

so i ask you one thing
i donno if i can
if i go tomorrow or today
would you mourn for me that day?

would you sit like a stranger
remember me for a minute?
or maybe cry for a day
then let me go away?

would you remember how we spend our days?
the joys, the sorrows the happiness and the pain?
or just recall certain moments past
no emotions attached?

would you remember our little joys?
catching butterflies, fireflies
running in the grass barefoot
things that i hope you would?

or maybe just regret things
that should have happened but never did?
like running away alone
or stealing kisses in the rain

would you remember our little fights?
those in which you always let me win?
or those due to which
we went without talking for days?

would you remember those little gifts?
my petting you in the head
you holding me through the scary scene
not minding little scratches i left in?

would you still scold my picture
if you think i was wrong?
or try and replace everything
memories and me?

or would you laugh looking back
on our little momentary madnesses
like the time when everything
and everyone didn't matter?

what if i jus go away
will you miss me?

so what exactly am i?

so my parents come back after a trip to rajasthan and the first thing my mom says, "nirali i went for a trip and how come you've grown thinner??" this was 2 weeks ago. ok fine,i did grow thin due to lots of missed breakfasts and lunches due to being a kumbhkaran that i am!
so then diwali comes and along with it comes the season of excessive sweetness and uncles and aunties from all over the planet bringing you irresistible mithais! like any sane mortal i binged and how! so yesterday i notice, despite eating like no tomorrow, none of my pants fit, more like lets just say, they fall off. anyhow i do find one pair of jeans that stay on and go ahead with the day. it so happens one of my cousin, ruchu di is on a stay here and guess what she says, "nirali is it me or you've actually grown healthier?"
seriously??

now i am kinda confused as to what exactly am i? thinner than before or healthier? gosh i tell you, you should stay away from these family people who confuse you like this! lolz...

why new blog!?

ok lets just start from the top..
i used to have my own blog, old gmail and yahoo account and also orkut. it so happened i was happy in my exisistance but oh god doesnt like that! so one day out of no where it gets HACKED! yeah you heard it right. and i end up losong all of the above!

so like everything in life changes, and you move on..i moved on(kinda seems like im talking about a relatioship lol)..


so pronto, heres my new improved blog page! cheers!